Well my finals start today….. i have a feeling this is not going to end well my depression is acting up again my mom is on my ass my two hardest finals are today and tomorrow so i have very little time to study and what time i do have leaves me with very little sleep so yea all this together will not be a good combination
I keep trying to be ok i keep fighting the depression but i get o tired so very tired of fighting it all the time but now according to my mom i have to become a better person and not sleep a much and do more work around the house all the things that are difficult to do when you have no energy …. i don’t know how much longer i can hide the truth but thing would be far worst if they had any idea what i deal with and it would be my fault to … i really just want to get outta here i need it and i need for someone to actually try and understand why thi happens to me i have my wonderful boyfriend but sometimes i fell like such a burden to him cause it seems like i am always depressed and when we hang out all i do i sleep he does not mind but i bothers me
Days like today make me wonder if i am getting worst the smallest things cause me to break down and after that i can’t trust my own brain i have no clue what thoughts are rational and irrational which ones are right which are wrong or even who i am at some points and i want my razor so bad maybe that would fix these crazy mood swings i have had lately or maybe i could rid every one of dealing with me and just disappear But i cant it would hurt him so badly if i chose either but still it would feel so good to not feel for a little bit and i could always hide it from him but if he found out it would only make me feel worst than i already do…… I want to bad for my brain to work normally and a few red lines could give me that even if just for a little while but i cant i have to stay strong i have to be okay i have to fight with out my blade
Hello Everyone, my name is Danny, I am Katelyn’s boyfriend. Late last night Katelyn was taken back into hospital from an overdose she had taken last week, her organs were shutting down slowly, yesterday, the hospital let her out, thinking everything was okay, but didn’t know she was in severe pain, Katelyn didn’t say anything, it was her ‘back-up plan’ to suicide. So shes drifting slowly, and the doctors said she will not make it. She will be missed, and I can’t cope without her here. I miss her so much already, and love her with every little bit of my heart. When she goes I don’t know what I will do, she is my perfect, sweet, loving girlfriend.
This photo was taken the day she came out of hospital.
I don’t care what fucking blog you have, you have to reblog this right now.
if you have a pink “rosy” blog, whatever, REBLOG THIS!